From my friendster blog: Application Form - My Friendster Version

* Note: I haven't translated the Cebuano words to English... Please bear with them...hehehe

Maalaala Mo Kaya, last Friday, featured the story of 2Lt. Ariel Toledo, the PMA Class Mandala Valedictorian who is currently fighting his battle with cholangiocarcinoma - a type of cancer that is not responsive to both chemo and radiotherapy. His story, i should say, is that of a typical Filipino success story -- simple man, dreams big, strives hard, inspires others, encounters trials, gets help from people who loves him, finds meaning in life amidst difficulties, and all those sort of stuff... I really admire how his girlfriend loves and cares for him. As in! Unconditional talaga. i'm pretty sure it was his gf's idea that his life story be featured on MMK in order to raise the extremely large amount of money needed for his transplant as it is the only option for his cancer --and it's not even a guaranteed treatment.

anyway, let's go to my friendster version of application form. Application form was the title of that episode, by the way. he took the PMa entrance exam twice but still failed which almost made him give up. his girlfriend gave him the third application form and encouraged him to try again. finally, he passed the exam. now, let's really go to my version....

ok... that's me looking at the PMA Cadetship Application Form. This was taken about a year ago. I asked this application form from a cadet during the Class Maragtas Silent Drill Exhibition in dgte last year.

What?!? si rhea, mag-PMA? That's absolutely crazy! Yeah right! And i was already a bsn graduate (ready to review for the board exam) at that time when i told this really crazy idea to my family and close friends. i thought it wasn't crazy at first. i was really keen on studying in PMA..what would i lose? i'll take the entrance exam on august 27 and NLE is on december pa. well, i might not even pass the entrance exam...hahaha.. and if i manage to pass the exam, what about the physical exam and PFT? i wish! and if i really would manage to meet all the requirements, endure the beast barracks, and be recognized as a plebe -- i know i would lose nothing (except for my hair..hehe). i'd gain valuable lessons in life pa and experience moments that i could never find in any part of the world or buy with all the money in the world..hay kadramahan to..i'd be really happy even if i get discharged after only a month of being a plebe.then i'd go back to my nursing career..hehe..as if nothing happened. :p

they said i was crazy and oh-so-stupid...they said the crazy idea will just pass off. it's just due to the recent maragtas silent drill and the influence of SENAFTIV (this is according to my father...hehe) on me. i don't think so... it actually runs in the blood. my father applied in pma but did not meet the height requirement..hehe. my sister would have been a pmaer too if she did not get the SGV scholarship. well, it doesn't really run in the blood--it's in the upbringing i guess. my father used to tell us stories about his father who was in the army. he has high regard for men and women in the military. and take note, when i was still in high school, he encouraged me to study in PMA because many women excel in there na (not that he'd also want me to excel there..hahaha..wishful thinking ra na). it was i who was afraid of his idea at that time. i could still remember how i laughed at that idea..how i thought of the reaction of my classmates and of course, our commandant, sir paters..Miss ****! Do not slouch!!!! hahaha..wla pa ko karecover at that time sa CAT, sa PMA pa kaya?!?!

but that's one reason too... if i'd study in pma, there's really no room for me to slouch. ma-poised na ko..hehehe. and those other things about rifle and marching drills...well, i guess a month or two in pma would enable me to execute those drills even while i sleep...hehe..

going back to my application form, i filled it up minus the thumb mark. a first class cadet (now a 2lt) told me that it's just a waste of time for me to study in pma. sayang ang nursing daw. i also did some deep contemplation and allowed reality to slap me hard. continue with my nursing career! i know there are a lot of people who'd be really happy to be in my position (that is having a bsn degree---just a few exams more and they'd be flying their way to US). the cadet also told me taht many of the cadets even want to take up nursing..that's interesting. why not establish a study exchange program? impossible, of course.

so i did not file my application form. i smile when i think about it right now. but the military idea is still in my system...i don't know why! i can't help it! even before i realized i wanted to study in pma, i already wanted to become a military nurse. mheling, in one of her testimonials (dated april 2006, i guess) in friendster, called me lt.col. hehehe..i'd be very much happy even with the rank of a 2lt. grrgrrr... I CAN'T HELP IT! i want to experience being in the military..on a second thought, im afraid it's not just experience-- it's to BE in the military.

i know it's quite hard to be in the military world as opposed to the civilian world where one can do all the things he/she wants. it's hard to "obey first before you complain." i know that it would not be easy for me to enter the military. i qualify all the "papers" requirements but i don't know if i can pass the medical exam or the physical fitness tests..i'll work on it after i'm done with my volunteer duty. and even if i do qualify, would my mother really allow me? we have been discussing about the nurse corps things since december pa, until now she's still apprehensive. she has always been against the idea of her children being away from home. everytime the topic about me entering the nurse corps is brought up, i always end up convincing her, and she, discouraging me. i even got the feeling she's hoping i won't be accepted...

"kung magsakit ka, kinsa may mobantay nimo? sus! sige ra ba gud kang gilabdan ug ulo ug gi sip-on (allergic rhinitis)..."
"nah! o, naa na poy sunog sa manila..."
"unya kung i-assign ka sa mindanao?" (hehe..more exciting!)
"apply nlang sa medical or holy child or teletech...malipay pa kaayo ko..."

the list goes on...

bitaw sa? the list against me entering the nurse corps is sooooo long. but i don't know why. im quite determined in joining the nurse corps. again, i know it's hard.but i've got a good feeling i'll be satisfied when i'll be commissioned in the nurse corps. there are actually a lot of benefits, not just monetary, but those kinds of "benefits" that, i must say again, one cannot find in any part of the world or buy with all the riches in the world. i just hope that i get accepted...waaahhh. i did not apply in medical center or holy child hospital (because there is a 1-2 yr contract) so that i could join next year's batch in the nurse corps. i would have been earning now with my friends. i would not be here right now ranting about it on friendster. i would not be an idler, as someone would put it, right now. i would be helping my family instead of being pabigat. i would not be making my mother worry about me every time i bring up the nurse corps stuff. i would not feel guilty for being such a disobedient daughter. i would not have to worry or wonder if i can really take the pressure of being in the military - a nurse and a soldier at the same time. (although, i always keep in mind that no one person was born a soldier - not even Sun Tzu, Napoleon Bonaparte, or Brig. Gen. Danilo Lim- or a nurse - not even Florence Nightingale or Clara Barton..everything can be learned..hehe). i would not have to worry if i'll be accepted and the effect it would have on me if i won't be accepted. but that's it!

I can't help it. These realities are slapping me really hard. yet, i continue to be 'anesthetized" from these painful realities. im beginning to sense taht im becoming really selfish..oh well, but this is my life too. it's now or never. i ain't gonna live forever just to try out on everything people would tell me. i want to be a military nurse!laugh at me..btw, i remember someone's look on her face when she knew i'll be applying in the NCAFP..hehehe..she said, "ha?! magmilitary nurse ka? mahinhin man ka?" you can say that again..mahinhin ba talaga ako? hehe.. *rolls eyes*

ok, so i'm applying this september or october together with my batchmate in highschool and college..ayay..kamahal sa plete paingon manila..huhuhu..but mao lagi na..we don't want to wonder for the rest of our lives..what if? what if? what if?.. if we are not really destined to become military nurses, then no matter what we do, we will never become mil nurses. but if we really are destined, then no matter what other people do to stop us, we will still become military nurses...hehehe (sounds familiar gyud...)

Posted on Friendster last June 22, 2007